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Graduation Gifts

Graduation Day for my oldest beautiful one is fast approaching. Some have asked if I am sad and teary-eyed. My response to that question is a resounding NO! I am so excited for her. She gets to step away from the confines of small town life with its limited choices and enter the big beautiful and limitless world of opportunities.

One of the neatest traditions of graduation is that of giving gifts. We do this for many life transitions including weddings, housewarmings, birthdays, retirement parties, and so on. There is something very special about giving to the one who is about to take a leap that allows us to feel we are helping them on their way. As she moves closer and closer to 7:00 PM on May 29th, I keep thinking about what it is I most want to give to her. So far, the list looks like this:

1. I give her the gift of love. May she always have an abundance of love to give others because the love she has for herself is absolutely overflowing.

2. I give her the gift of open-mindedness. It took me a very long time to acquire this precious item. I share it with her so that she will have the opportunity to experience so much more of life because she can see beyond her own experiences.

3. I give her the gift of intuition. Again, this is one that I’ve only recently uncovered for myself. She is already developing her gift of intuition, and it is serving her extremely well. I trust that she will learn to use it in just the right balance so as to protect herself and serve others.

4. I give her the gift of courage. It takes guts to put oneself out there for the world to judge your talents and abilities. Sometimes that judgment brings some disappointment. Other times it comes with abundant rewards. Both experiences require significant courage. Here is trusting that the disappointments will be blessings in disguise and the abundant rewards will be easily recognizable.

5. I give her the gift of inner peace. The ability to rest quietly in one’s own company and enjoy a bit of solitude is priceless. It is also critically necessary to maintaining one’s sanity and for listening to intuition. Here’s to the ability to quiet her mind.

6. I give her the gift of vision. May she always look forward to both choose and see her destiny and shape it the way she wants it to be. Looking back only attracts more of what one is attempting to leave behind. Forward focus is the only way to travel through life.

7. I give her the gift of everlasting inner beauty. May everyone who crosses her path throughout her life feel as though they have experienced a gift simply being in the presence of such an amazing person as this one of mine.

8. I give her the gift of wisdom. May all of her choices in life be guided by the wisdom of her heart rather than the rationality of her mind.

9. I give her the gift of freedom. While she will always be welcome to visit in my presence, I set her free to become her own person, establish her own family, experience life her own way without criticism, control, or disapproval from me.

10. I give her the gift of abundance. May she always realize that her heart’s desires are fully available to her simply by making her request known and feeling she is already in possession of that which she seeks.

And so it is. In a little over two weeks, she will step up on stage for the last time as a high school student. When she steps down, her life will forever be changed, and there will be no looking back.

 “….and these three remain: Faith, Trust, and Love, and the greatest of these is Love.” Enjoy life, Princess.



Do you ever have one of those days (weeks, months, years?) when you feel disconnected from the important stuff? Maybe your passion has to be parked while you play firefighter. Maybe you are physically exhausted and there isn’t anything left over to put towards your passion. Maybe what you think is reality has rained all over your passion parade. In any case, after riding the wave of energy and excitement for a while, you suddenly find yourself stuck at the bottom of a roller coaster with the power unplugged. It’s a crummy place to land.
Yet sometimes we need a break from the roller coaster. It gives us time to let our stomach settle, our nerves calm, and get our land legs back underneath us. How can we make the most of the disconnected times without letting it take over permanently?
For starters, recognize it for what it is. Don’t freak out about it. Just notice it, acknowledge it, and be cool with it. Second, take advantage of it. If your body and brain are begging for some neutral time, grant them their wish. Sit on the floor in a dark quiet place. If your house is pretty active, this may have to be the closet in the back bedroom. Get on a treadmill and walk mindlessly for awhile. Finally, notice what your brain is discussing. What’s the chatter that is invading your quiet space? Is it positive, supportive thoughts? Is it revealing information that will lead you back around to your passion? Or is it snarky stuff that drags you down and keeps you disconnected? If it is the latter, acknowledge the thought, then dismiss it by asking yourself, “How would it be if it were ideal?” The answer to that question becomes your new thought.
There is nothing wrong with disconnecting for a short time. Allow yourself the time and space to investigate the disconnect. Maybe it’s just a temporarily “brown-out” and everything will be back to running at peak capacity in a short time. On the other hand, maybe you’ve blown a fuse, pulled a plug on something, or fried some wiring. If that’s the case, identify the source of the problem and replace the connectors.
Remember, once the power’s back on, the chain grabs the front car and here we go again! There’s a huge drop on the other side, but it sure is fun. Enjoy the ride.

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Retreated and Renewed

I am BAAAAAACCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!! Hello again blogging world.

I am not exactly sure what I expected to get from the spiritual renewal retreat in Jemez Springs. Sometimes I think I expect miracles to happen when what I should expect is a nice easy time of things. Then again, maybe my miracles happen in little ways instead of in big production ways.

Jemez Springs is a neat little town. I had heard about it often from our friends who have a cabin there. HOWEVER, the Canon del Rio was the coolest place I have ever stayed. The arched adobe courtyard entrance greeted us as we drove up. Walking through the front door revealed a huge lodge-type great room with a wall of windows facing the mountain to the west. On the left was a breakfast bar. Moving around the room, I noticed a nice kitchen area, a door marked private which I later found out was an efficiency apartment, and the traditional southwest fireplace.

On the other side of the entrance was the entertainment center complete with a big screen TV and a sofa, chair, and loveseat. The decor around the room was very Southwest Native American. The floor was covered in a stone tile that added to the southwest flair.

Flanking each side of the great room were hallways leading to the bedrooms. Six rooms, three extending from each side of the great room, were each decorated similarly. We were shown to ours with its king-sized bed for Daddy Long Legs. Our room had a sliding glass door leading out to the back courtyard, which was beautifully adorned with pole benches, small trees, and a gorgeous fishpond/fountain. Another archway led visitors beyond the B&B grounds down toward the Jemez River.

Even with the remants of winter still holding natures beauty at bay, we were overwhelmed by the awesomeness of the things our eyes had seen. Trees and mountains have a way of providing a sense of seclusion, even when one is not alone. I think seclusion was my miracle for the weekend.

If you ever get a chance to visit Canon del Rio in Jemez Springs, NM, I feel quite confident that you will find it every bit as charming as I did. When you go, be sure to tell Dagna (pronounced like lasagna) that I sent you. She is an incredible breakfast cook. You won’t be disappointed.

As for the various energy modalities used during the retreat activities, I found that I was familiar with most of them from my various BrainGym experiences and my limited yoga and Touch for Health experiences. They were good for me and for my hunky baby because it reminded our bodies of ways we can move with a little bit of warm up and preparation. We haven’t lost that flexibility yet, but we sure need to get with the program and keep moving. And yes, he survived a room full of women being sorely outnumbered about 14 women to two men.

We set an intention for the retreat. Mine was something about having clarity and confidence in my career options. That became the focus of the various meditative moments I had. I suppose I have come away from the retreat with some clarity in that area. I think I am still processing a bit, which we were told would likely take a few days longer to fully do it’s thing.

One thing is fairly solid at this point. I have realized my strong desire to reconnect with nature. While I love promoting health and wellness, I also realize I probably won’t be happy if I go from teaching and working with technology in a windowless concrete room to teaching and working with health and wellness in a windowless concrete room. I need sunshine, raindrops, singing birds, pecking chickens, green plants, and some slimy earthworms throughout my day no matter what I do. That’s an important piece of career information. If I choose to pursue massage as a full time career, I will have to figure out how to do it in a way that allows me to gaze out on nature. It’s not going to work for me to be shut up in a windowless private massage room for hours on end. I guess you would call that some serious clarity, therefore this was a successful retreat for that reason alone.

Finally, this post wouldn’t be complete without mentioning the two amazing people who were our tireless hosts. Debi and Randy are absolutely some of the most gracious people I have ever had the privilege of knowing. They shared their evenings in Jemez Springs with us, then allowed us to extend our stay another night in their beautiful suburban hacienda. While there is much to appreciate about these two people, I think what I like most is the fact that they are truly genuine.

Randy is a man’s man. He’s a Vietnam vet chopper pilot who loves hunting, fishing, and his dog. He is not afraid to tell you what he thinks, even if it is a bit on the politically incorrect side. He is real, and that’s a great thing to be.

Debi is his counterbalance. She is soft and compassionate to everyone, and would give them her last spinach salad (which I could eat for every meal). Even so, she has a line and stands her ground when necessary. She is a woman worthy of respect, and a beautiful woman at that.

Yes, it was a great escape…my man, God’s awesomeness, powerful intention, incredible food, loving people, and none of my own children. :-)  When can we go back?





I am so grateful to be spending this weekend in beautiful Jemez Springs, New Mexico, at a spiritual renewal retreat. My very good and enlightened friend Debi is hosting the event which combines yoga, Native American Medicine Wheel, sound vibration, healing breath, accupressure, Aryuvedic massage, meridian massage, movement, stillness, plus BrainGym in an incredible setting. While I am familiar with many of these, I have yet to experience most of them. I am very excited about having the opportunity to get them in my body.

Debi’s flyer lists a ton of benefits to be gained by practicing these Multi-Sensory art forms. They include:

  • enhance body functions
  • increase energy
  • alleviate mental fatigue
  • create efficient electrical and chemical action between the brain and nervous system
  • reduce emotional flare ups
  • diffuse stress
  • improve self-control and sense of boundaries
  • lessen depression, fatigue, pain, and hypersensitivity

I’m dragging my wonderful hunky baby on this adventure. I don’t know that he is overly excited about being in the sessions, but he has such an incredible meditative mind. Besides,  from my past experiences after returning home to him from BrainGym workshops,  he will find it is WELL WORTH not having to wait for me to get back home to reap the benefits—if you know what I mean. Honestly, I’m just excited about being totally alone with him for a few hours. It’s been too long since we’ve had that privilege.

As for my friend Debi, I love being around her and her hunky baby. He doesn’t have the guts to endure a spiritual retreat, but that’s okay. He also probably isn’t into candles, fish, plants, and cats like my man is, yet we love him anyway. He gives some of the biggest and best hugs I’ve ever had. I fully intend to pick Debi’s brain right down to the very last neuron. She has knowledge that I want and skills that I would like to acquire. She has led or hosted several of the BrainGym workshops I have attended and one will never find a more gracious hostess. It will be an awesome weekend filled with incredible energy.

You can be assured of two things that will happen over the weekend. First, I won’t be checking my email. Second, upon my return to blogging, I will have details (well, G-rated details anyway) about the incredible things I am expecting to happen while in Jemez Springs.

Here’s trusting you will have a weekend just as amazing as mine.


Yesterday I sent a very spiritually-minded friend an email asking her thoughts on my desire for change. As expected, she had some really cool words of wisdom. She told me to “…just let go.” I had to ask her what exactly it was that I needed to let go. She suggested that letting God know (and myself) that if in fact I need to remain in the current situation for a while longer, I am okay with doing so. In other words, let go of pushing for the change to happen by a deadline.
Here are her words:
“I have learned that I have to be willing to let it ALL go before I know for sure what God really wants for me. In other words, tell Him that you are willing to keep doing what you are doing if that is His Will for you. Sometimes that is when the windows and doors come open for other avenues. You have to choose to want His Will for your life – no matter what that might mean. That is when the peace will come for you. It isn’t easy. And it isn’t just saying ok whatever you want. It is a complete letting go of what your desires may be so that you can SEE what He has for you. He is showing you lots of stuff and I really think that He is giving you the desires of your heart – as promised. But it is His timing that we don’t know.”
By making all possibilities acceptable, even the one from which I am attempting to escape, I open the door for shift to begin to occur. I don’t even begin to understand how it all works, but I do know that being against something is a sure fire way to attract into my life plenty of what I am against. Mother Teresa was supposedly noted for stating that she would NOT attend an anti-war demonstration, but that she would welcome the opportunity to be present for a peace rally. Wow! That’s pretty powerful.
I also asked my friend to think of a creature…anything that came to mind. She said, Always a butterfly – ever changing from one thing to the next more pretty one.”
So I looked up butterfly in my handy dandy Animal Spirit Guides book. It says, “Lighten up and stop taking everything so seriously. Get ready for a big change, one where an old habit, way of thinking, or lifestyle is going out, and a new way of being is emerging. It’s time to make the changes you’ve been considering. In spite of  the challenges, you’ll get through this transition, and as always, know that ‘this too shall pass.’ Express yourself by wearing more colorful clothing.” 
Then it says, “Call on the butterfly when:
  • You know it’s time for a change, and you need the courage to break out of your self-imposed cocoon;
  • You’re going through a major life transition such as divorce or career change;
  • You want encouragement to more freely express the love you feel to those around you;
  • You want to put more romance into the relationship with your spouse or intimate partner;
  • You want help to relax more and go with the flow of the cycles in your work or your relationship.”
I think the butterfly represents an aspect of God’s nature–the part that embraces change and shows us how to cope with it. That cocoon is a pretty tight and vulnerable place in the lifecycle of this beautiful creature. Yet he cares for and nourishes the caterpillar in this tightest and most vulnerable phase of life, and then allows the creature to emerge beautiful and free.
Okay God. I agree to allow the best and highest good for me to  be my reality, even if it doesn’t appear to be what I want. This cocoon is getting a bit aggravating, though, so as soon as you see fit, I’d like to start the squeezing out process. Fresh air, sunshine, and wind beneath my wings are pretty high up there on my list of desires, and you DID say, “Ask and you shall receive.”  Thanks for taking care of me through the tight and vulnerable times.
Here’s to an abundance of sweet nectar and a really gorgeous set of wings.

Listening Through Nature

For those of us who have deep roots in Judeo-Christian theology, sometimes listening for answers from Divine Power has significantly limited options. We grew up knowing that God answers prayers, but I’m not sure many of us have ever known exactly how he does that. I mean, yeah….it’s easy if you ask God for a car as a teenager, and one is in the driveway on Christmas morning, or if  you ask for healing and voila! the doctor’s report comes back with the desired results. But what about those questions that may not have such black and white answers? What about the day to day stuff where we seek guidance from a higher power? How do you know where and when to find those answers?

Anyone with some basic Bible knowledge will be familiar with some stories in the Bible where God revealed his will to those who asked of him, and even some who did not. There is Moses and the burning bush, the children of Israel and their clouds and fire, Balaam and his stubborn donkey, Gideon and his wet/dry fleece, Samuel and his dreams, Joseph and HIS BIZARRE dreams, Ezekiel and some really creepy dry bones, Jonah and a big fish, Saul/Paul and a blinding light, Jesus and the Doves, and on and on.

In almost all of these, God spoke to his people through nature. In many of these situations, the Divine initiated the conversation. In some, the mortals with whom conversation had been initiated then requested tests or proof of the authenticity of the message. If you are Gideon headed into battle with only 300 men, it is probably prudent to test the source of the message.

Did all of that cool communication go away on a magically assigned date somewhere around 100 AD? Nope. Religious oppression over the centuries just squashed a lot of it so that most people were too busy surviving day to day to seek divine guidance and answers. Those who did and actually told of their encounters were often times put to death as heretics. A very powerful communication tool was almost lost in the name of keeping people subordinate to the church leadership. After all, the dominant religion for centuries has been one that says only church leaders should interpret messages from God.

Since I have a habit of stepping outside of the bounds of conventionally accepted norms just for the sake of annoying leadership, it probably won’t come as a surprise to those who know me that I have some strong opinions on the subject of communicating with Divine sources. It also probably won’t come as a surprise that I believe many of the communication resources recognized by non-Christian religions are in fact very valid and reliable ways to receive messages from God.

So how does one receive communication from Spirit beyond just reading the Bible? If you believe in an unchanging divinity, it might be suggested that you should look to nature for your answers as did the heroes of the Bible. I have found this to be a very effective source of guidance.

I have a really cool book called Animal Spirit Guides
by Steven D. Farmer. It is a book based on Native American Shamanic beliefs. It is NOT my Bible, and Shamanism is NOT my religion, however, it is a very nice resource for helping me understand what Divine Wisdom (God for those of you who are freaking out about now) is trying to get across to me. Essentially, it gives Spirit a way to get through to my sometimes dense self.

The concept is simple. Anytime a creature from nature crosses my path, especially in a repeated or unusual way, and especially when I am seeking guidance, I can look it up in this book. As an example, a dear friend of mine made an off-handed comment this week asking if I was a camel in reference to my not needing to be relieved of testing duties long enough to go to the bathroom. I really didn’t think much about it for a couple of days. This morning I was glancing through the book looking up some critters who tend to throw themselves in front of my car as I drive down the road, to see if anything rang true with my soul. I came across camels, recalled the comment, reflected on my knowledge of the source of the comment, and realized that this was a message meant for me.

Some may think this is silly since our part of the country has lots of suicidal animals, however, some creatures tend to be repeat messengers as if they are trying to get my attention in some way. There was the week when white breasted hawks were stalking me along the road. There is the recent nose-burning pungency of fresh roadkill skunk that has become quite annoying of late. There was the weekend when two separate individuals both mentioned quail. They were connected through a common love interest, yet unaware of each other’s interest in quail. It was an unplanned accident that I even crossed paths with the second source of quail-age.  

Other creature messengers that have grabbed my attention in recent months include the bumblebees that seemed obsessed with me last fall. It was as if they were seeking me out because some of our encounters were in very “un-bumblebee” places. Squirrels, horses, hippos, and others have crossed my paths in unusual and unexpected ways, and each have messages that encourage me and support me at a time when I really need it.

Back to my camel message, there is a pretty lengthy explanation of the message a camel might bring, however, what got my attention were these:

The road ahead may be difficult and you won’t have a lot of support, yet you must take it with complete trust that you have everything you need within you and that you will succeed.

Although you’ll never want for anything, it’s still a good idea and a practical move to store away some supplies and money for future use.

Call on the camel when—You’re about to embark on a new adventure, a literal or metaphorical journey that will take you into unknown territory where you’re not sure how your basic needs will be met.

No, I am not putting my faith in a camel. Yes, I realize this could apply to anything and almost any circumstance. However, I have asked God specifically for guidance in this area, and I am open to receiving his comfort, wisdom, and reassurance in whatever way he is able to get through to me. This is no different than listening to a donkey talk or heeding the words of a burning bush. It only requires a willingness to listen, receive, and be grateful. When combined with frequent visits into the recorded wisdom of apostles and Jesus, it is a comforting compliment.

How do you listen to the Spirit?

Energy Matters

When you get right down to it, everything, every experience, every personal interaction emits some type of energy. My oldest and I have begun to make a game out of reading the energy of people and situations. Don’t get all uppity and weirded out on me, because you all do it. Everyone does it. There are people you really like to be around, and there are those that leave you feeling exhausted after 15 seconds in their presence. All she and I have done is take it one step further so as to actually identify and verbalize what we are perceiving.

This past weekend, we attended a scholarship interview at the university she will be attending this fall. On the four hour drive home, I asked her about the people whose paths we crossed that day as well as others with whom we are acquainted. One of the areas in which I am most interested is why she was so instantly drawn to this university. She is and has always been very sensitive to the energy that radiates from others. She is also quick to let me know when she is loving the energy or looking for a quick exit to escape from it. After going through a list of the people we encountered, both as university personnel and as family members of scholarship applicants, it became quite apparent why she liked this place. The energy of the people who work there (professors, coaches, recruiters) is one of passion, compassion, nurturing, and excellence. That places oozes these things. As a result, they attract some really top notch kids that go on to do incredible things with their lives. Of course it certainly didn’t hurt that our tour guide for the day was a hottie with great energy and gorgeous eyes.

That leads me to my question of the day. What kind of energy do we as individuals or organizations put out? What is radiating from our heart? I know that my energy changes depending on whether I am just trying to get through whatever task requires my attention or whether I am in total love with what I am doing. Over the years, I have been involved with organizations that seemed to be hanging on by the thinnest thread. I always left those encounters feeling drained, and I am quite confident that the energy I contributed back to the organization was less than intoxicating. It was probably downright sedating if not repulsive. It is almost as if I become a magnifier of whatever energy I encounter.

Because of this realization, I have made a decision in my life. I am going to do my best to spend time doing those things and hanging around those people whose energy supports me. In turn, I will be a beacon of amazing energy that fires up people and organizations wherever I go. This will require that I scrutinize my encounters with people and places and ceremonies. Don’t get me wrong. There are plenty of good people with crummy energy who both need and deserve my love, but I don’t need to hang out with them for extended periods of time, especially if my energy stores are running on empty. Just as a person wouldn’t take their car to a gas station with an “out of gasoline” sign hanging on the pump, nor would a recovering alcoholic seek a job at a liquor store, neither should I place my precious self near a source that is generating sucking sounds from the vaccuum of nothingness. I know full well that I am too susceptible to the draining effects.

Take a moment and think about the people, places, organizations, events, and hobbies in your life. Which ones lift you to a better place, fill you with life, or put a smile on your face? How can you multiply these encounters? Which ones weigh heavy on your heart and soul, use guilt to hold on to you, or leave you feeling tired, empty, and picked apart? What are you willing to do to release them from your life? Shake off the guilt and let go. After all, if you, too, are a magnifier of the energy that surrounds you, then continuing to hang on to that which doesn’t serve you well only makes it worse for the person or organization you are attempting to serve. Set yourself free and in doing so, you will set others free as well.

Intuition vs. Rational Thought

Have you ever experienced a pull to do something radically different in your life? Maybe it was something that didn’t make sense on the rational side of things, but for which you had an incredibly strong intuitive feeling to take a leap of faith.

How did you make your decision? What types of gut instincts or intuition experiences did you have? What did friends and family say? Any regrets?

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